Monday, January 25, 2016

Third Love Letter: The Birth

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Dearest Cagar,

On November 9, 2015, I went to do my regular check-up with Uncle Yudit in RSCM. Since your father was rather "busy" at that time, I went alone. I was in complete shock when Uncle Yudit told me that my amniotic fluid was only 6.7 in scale (a good amount of amniotic fluid should be at 10-20 scale; around 1000-2000 mL). He was kinda suggesting me to do partus induction AT THAT TIME. I was just stunned for a few seconds before finally answered that I didn't ready for that #hello..I even went there all alone #almostcrying. Since I've discussed about my partus plan with your aunt (*Mama Kiki) and agreed to give birth at Hermina Hospital, Bekasi where both of your aunt and her husband have their medical practices, Uncle Yudit then urged me to re-visit him at Hermina Bekasi on November 13, 2015.
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That Friday morning (November 13, 2015), I went to see my advisor at campus and asked for a-month pregnancy leave. After that, I went to visit Uncle Yudit at Hermina Bekasi accompanied by your father, grandfather (Aki Kurnia), grandmother (Nenek Eli), aunt (Bulik Ria) and cousin (Shaura). I was very anxious when Uncle Yudit told me that you must be delivered soon because my amniotic fluid had decreasing to 4.8 in scale. It was impossible to prolong the pregnancy. I must be hospitalized that night and got myself ready for the c-section procedure by the next morning.
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November 14, 2015 at 4.30 a.m., a nurse came to place an intravenous (IV) lines in my hand's vein. That was my first IV lines experience in my whole life, son. It wasn't as painful as I imagined though. Your father and aunt (*Tante Citra) had waiting in front of the operation room. We called your grandfather (Kakek Ijal) to ask for a prayer. Then I went inside by myself. At 5.30 a.m., an anesthesiologist came and injected epidural and spinal anesthesia to my spine #that was super hurt T-T. Then your aunt and uncle came to do the surgical procedure. It was kinda funny to vaguely hear "a spouse discussion" during procedure.
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At 6.15, you were born, son. I could vaguely hear "Dek, bayimu udah lahir ya. Itu dia nangis", said your aunt. Then everything was super blur and I went completely unconscious. I didn't realize something emergency came up. I will tell you a lot more about that situation on the next letter, son. 
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The most important thing is, I want you to know that giving birth to you was the happiest moment of my life, son. You COMPLETE me.



Love,

Ummi

Saturday, January 23, 2016

Second Love Letter: When You Were In My Tummy

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Dearest Cagar,

You were always become a considerate and good baby since you were in my tummy. I didn't feel any nausea nor get any difficulty during my pregnancy. Well, that was excluding my weight gain, which of course made me a gigantic woman who couldn't move at ease #grin. I gained 16 kgs in 9 months, btw.
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Did you know that your father would always be gladly massaging my tummy with olive oil during pregnancy? Stretch marks are a nightmare for any woman, son. But well, now I couldn't do anything but sighing after seeing those marks are scattered here and there on my body after you got delivered #bitter
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I always felt a funny feeling when you were kicking inside. I always made sure that you kicked more that 10 times per day, son. I kept counting to make sure that you were healthy and actively moving inside. Started from week 26, I also diligently joined prenatal class at Hermina Hospital, Bogor. Your father always accompanied me and we would go somewhere to quench my food craving after that class.
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Let me tell you that you are a lucky baby, son. You have an obstetrician aunt (*she wanted you to call her "Mama Kiki" :)) who always kept on track on your health and mine as well. Besides, your aunt's husband (*who is also an obstetrician) was also generously giving help during my pregnancy. Another person whom I want you to respect is "Wak Icu". She is my cousin's wife who is working as a midwife in Cilebut. She played a huge role in making sure of your wellbeing during my pregnancy. I went to Cilebut once in a month to do my pregnancy check-up and also went to RSCM in Jakarta to do ultrasound scans with Uncle Yudit (*Mama Kiki's husband).
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Love,

Ummi

Friday, January 22, 2016

First Love Letter: The Waiting Is Over

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Dearest Cagar, 

Ummi and Abah had been waiting for you to complete our lives for almost two years. There was a moment when I felt down when someone asked whether I already pregnant or still far from expecting a baby. Even my regular period could become a torture when it came just right in time without any delay. 
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January 2015, when I went home all alone to Yogyakarta for my little sister's graduation, somehow I felt that it would be my last me-time moment before you came. Two months later, I had two weeks late for my period. Then, I went to the drugstore and bought four different-brand pregnancy test kits (*well, I needed to make sure that result was valid :)). I was super exhilarated to find two lines on the first kit. My hands were shaken when the second, third and fourth kits were generated the same results. I called your grandmother (*she was just landed and on the way from the airport to Cibubur at that time) and father (*he was somewhere at the market in Ciputat back then) to deliver the good news. They were as excited as I did and wish for your wellbeing for the next 9 months.
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I will tell you a lot more…the ups and downs moments..during my pregnancy on the next love letter.


Love,

Ummi