Absurd

Today is the very first time in my whole Taiwan's life when I spent my just-being-refilled cellphone credits all at once, just to call my brother and ended up insulted by him =p.

G : Hey, Gema udah sengaja pulang kantor cepat2 karena tadi ditelepon bahwa paketmu udah nyampe 

B : Huh? Paket apaan?

G : Itu, paket Taiwanmu, Mbak...yang jumbo beneran kaya' judul boxnya

B : Oh...hehehe. Syukurlah sudah sampai

G : Gema kira isinya sepeda lipatmu. Ternyata cuma buku2, baju2 dan "sampah2"mu *tiba2 mengalihkan pembicaraan karena putri kecilnya bangun* Keponakanmu cantik banget ini lho, Mbak. Ciku2..Shofiya ini Tante Bunga telepon, Nak

B : Hauuuu...Mbak Bunga pengeeeeeen banget pulang nguyel2 Shomay

G : Ya koe nak balik kapan bah, Mbak? Your homecoming still sounds very ABSURD to me

B : *knocked out* 

It was not the first he's talking that harsh to his big sister. I know he's almost always right, so I just kind of always listen to his sharp comments.

Am I really being that absurd? Am I being too selfish to my family? Do I look like a happy-go-lucky girl who doesn't want to go home a.s.a.p? The absurdity that my brother said has always become my these days' contemplation "theme". He's not the only one who said that. My father ever said that he's insanely missed me and always wants me to go home in no time. Milly also ever said that she didn't understand why I (who happened to be SMART in her "imagination" =p) haven't wrapped up my things here; that I missed too may family events and sort of it. Well, I completely understand that people's lives is full of choices. Either my life is. I chose this path, hence, I don't think I should questioned any of it. But, one thing for sure is, I guess I just got a new "provocation" to end everything here VERY SOON. Enough doing self-sacrifice for else. I...want...to...go...home ! I MUST GO HOME...