Forgiving

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Seriously, what happened to me these past few months? I feel like I have been REBORN!

I understand myself extremely well than else, and I know that I have a horrible trait. Vengeful. This bad tone of me can be severe, according to the situation I'm facing. But because I'm basically not a temperamental person, when I'm hating someone, I never express it through rage or violence. I just simply bury my hatred inside my heart or sometimes kind of snap my feelings out through my sharp tongue *_*. That's why sometimes I find myself feeling frustrated over things I've been burying in or guilty over words coming out from my mouth.

I know that I'm a melancholy by nature that seeks perfection, sensitive, secretive, shy, and thoughtful. But I also realized that I have a phlegmatic trait, such as sympathetic, understanding, dan easy going. I just previously felt that my melancholy trait was dominating towards the phlegmatic. Thus, I could be easily hurt by else's attitudes and emphasized prejudices. But this past two months, I really felt like these two traits domination has reversed. Don't get me wrong, but I'm not the one who felt so. My close friends were thinking the same. They said that I've changed; in a good way.


Honestly, I even astonished with my very own change-over. Started from my action that simply forgave other who consciously came late to the appointment; epic dazing. Re-joining the mailing-list I'd unsubscribed (*the reason why I unsubscribed was too hilarious); stupidly awesome. Seeing me doing this approval*** action against the person that made me unsubscribed from the mailing-list (*ooops XD)...was ridiculously amazing. Catching a glimpse of myself on the mirror when I was sobbing while reciting Qur'an...was even more bewildering. Well, I guess I have to get ready for even bigger SURPRISES from myself.

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Thank you Allah for softening my heart. Thank you Allah for giving me a chance to be a better human being. Thank you, Allah...^^