Have you ever felt intimidated by someone? Even with his/her "virtual" existence, you'll feel some kind of anxiety. That's exactly what i feel this past few months. *i guess someone called Panda already knew where this "curcol" will flowing ;p*
OK. Imagine you work with someone who is OUTSTANDING. Nobody would doubt his/her ability in tackling almost EVERYTHING. What would you possibly feel as that person's subordinate? Happy? Because he/she will take over everything and finish the whole thing flawlessly? *D.A.N.G* i don't think so. Contrary, you'll feel BURDENED. INTIMIDATED. DEPRESSED (*unless you're extraordinarily happy-go-lucky person).
It's not about that person outshines you or better than you in your work field. Indeed, he/she is, without question. But it's about how on earth he/she doing this kind of mental-damaging action without even realize it ???!!! Well, let say that i've conducted a small-tiny-unimportant research about this matter. I'll say his/her unawareness is caused by this things :
1. He/she is also burdened by something (*responsibility-whatsoever) or someone, thus he/she will try his/her best to boost performances (individually) in order to chase away his/her own burden.
2. He/she is in the dark about his/her subordinate abilities, hence he/she will keep moving forward without looking back nor helping out the poor-subordinate.
3. He/she is setting the standard too high, aside from his/her subordinate capabilities (*almost the same with point no.2, but this one is more likely to be done consciously).
Alas, the what so-called intimidated feeling is emerged.
Up until now, i still feel it. Honestly, the feeling is getting worse. *deep sigh*
I just hope that i can get through everything immediately. Laa haula walaa quwwata illaa billaahil'aliyyil'adzhim....