....and the show must go on

The most difficult part of having a privilege to extending study is telling the parents so. As for me, it's not only difficult, bitter, but shameful, all higgledy-piggledy. I hate making my parents sad, I hate telling them that I failed to score a triumph, I even more hate asking for their money. M.O.N.E.Y. This five letters of word always becomes my PRIDE [*the eldest's pride *coughing]. I never get used to ask for money even from my own parents. Let me make it clear. My parents indeed always give me a monthly allowance. Of course I'm still getting that from them. What I hate to do is asking extra money for something that I shouldn't ask, for something counted as needless. Like this circumstances I'm facing now. I should've not extended my study in this country for TWO EXTRA SEMESTERS. Two years should be enough to wrap up everything. 笨蛋 ! But in the end, I don't have any choice except doing so because the scholarships from the university had stopped since six or seven months ago. My father always says "Lho, ya ga pa pa, Nak. Kan kamu anak Papa. Minta uangnya ya sama Papa. Kecuali nanti kalau kamu sudah menikah, baru minta sama suamimu". *D'oh...Papa Y-Y.

I remember a few weeks ago, I was trying to hide the fact that I must stay here longer to my father. At that time, he told me to buy a notebook and I answered "Notebooknya nanti Bunga titipkan ke teman Bunga yang mau pulang saja ya, Pa". "Ya, it's OK, Nak. Bunga kapan pulang? Papa kangen", he replied. *Ouch [punctured]. I always bad in hiding something [*especially to my father], so, yeah...I ended up telling him the truth. When I told him that I'd rather going home than asking for another money from him to support my study, he texted a simple sentences [*which have successfully triggered the lacrimation on my eyes] "Jangan menyerah, Nak. Selesaikan semuanya dengan berani. Jangan pikirkan soal uang. Itu urusan Papa". *Weeping.

I couldn't forget that my dearest brother also encouraging me with his sharp-edged advice. "Semangat, Nge. Bisalah diselesaikan. Tapi ingat pesanku. Jangan boros. Kamu itu selalu ga tahan kalau lihat gadget baru. Sudah beli apa saja sejak kembali ke Taiwan, eh? Memang gaya hidupmu itu sungguh berbeda denganku". NYAHAHAHAAAA =)) *got a severe stomach cramps for laughing so hard. It's barely believable that this 23-year-old boy man dare to lecture his big sister so =p. Speaking about my brother's saying, it's true that we are like night-and-day/black-and-white in terms of money management. I can spend my allowance extravagantly while he can save his prudently. That's why he never forgets to remind me to be more considerate in managing my allowance, especially in restraining myself from being a gadget freak =p. 

All in all, here I am. Victoriously ceased my maudlinness. Errr, those turmoils above were already flew away though. I've made up my mind and gather an extraneous energy to wrap up everything. Moreover, Allah surely has planned something for me. Why bother? Bismillah...FULL STEAM AHEAD! *glad to be back blogging :))*

Vocabulary 2010 Zeitgeist

A lot more to memorize. Here they are :

Shellacking. Refudiate. Junk shot. Belieber. Fat-finger. Double-rainbow.

"I'm not recommending for every future president that they take a shellacking like that", (President Obama in one of dunno-when-speech). "If a boxer got really badly beaten up in the ring, you could say he got shellacked. From sports it went into politics," explains Ben Zimmer, NY Times Magazine's "On Language" columnist.

What about "refudiate"? This time, it's Sarah Palin's contribution. The word is a combinations between "refute" and "repudiate", which both mean "deny". Mrs. Palin said "Shakespeare created words". Hmmm, she should add "Why can't I ?" =p. Well, there are a couple differences between Shakespeare and Sarah Palin :)). 

Besides politicians, things occurred within a year have put significant words additions to the society. Remember BP's oil spill ? It has bequeathed "junk shot". 16-year-old former You Tube sensation Justin Bieber has way too creative fans who made "belieber" as a combo words between "believer" plus "bieber". When the stock market's value flopped because someone was mistakenly typed "million" instead of "billion", we got "fat-finger". Finally, "double-rainbow" expresses the hope of finding science's optimism and breakthrough from viral video uploaded by Paul Vasquez in earlier 2010. Whew, what a year :D !

[Coming Up Soon] Payback Time

Mrs. Russel Brand, please allow me to quote one tiny part of your song lyrics here.

"You change your mind, Like a girl changes clothes...." "...You're yes then you're no, You're in and you're out, You're up and you're down, You're wrong when it's right, It's black and it's white" [let's forget "we fight, we break up..." for the inappropriateness reasons]

Who the heck that I was referring to ? None other than my frigging advisor. He is playing a game with me. For the second times in two semesters, he hit me hard with his "your draft is not good enough to be presented in a final defense".

I guess I assisted 50% of his hatred over me. I started everything, after all. I recalled it was more than a year ago when I took his Technical English Writing class. In the first meeting, he handed over the handouts and gave some introductions about the class. I read the handout and frowned. "Bleeding heck, what kind of class is this?", my mind opposed. I couldn't stand and rose my hand. "Pardon me for interrupting, Sir. What is exactly you're trying to teach in this class? I found it unnecessary", I bashed him right into his face. As if a devil possessed me, I kept confronting him and smacked his pride in front of twenty-something students in his very first master's degree student class. The day after, I dropped that class from my list. Darn. Thinking it over, that was hella idiotic action of mine. A blast of victory that costs me an arm and a leg.

Lesson learnt. Don't confront others right into their faces, openly. Especially when that typical person has the privilege to "decide your future, academically". Another thing is I guess I was only using my silver bullet to shoot my goal. No wonder it was a total failure. I've set another strategy, this time with my signature engraved golden bullet. I'll finish what I've started. You want to play a game, eh? Bring it on ! Giving up is not exist in my dictionary. Bismillah....