Absurd

Today is the very first time in my whole Taiwan's life when I spent my just-being-refilled cellphone credits all at once, just to call my brother and ended up insulted by him =p.

G : Hey, Gema udah sengaja pulang kantor cepat2 karena tadi ditelepon bahwa paketmu udah nyampe 

B : Huh? Paket apaan?

G : Itu, paket Taiwanmu, Mbak...yang jumbo beneran kaya' judul boxnya

B : Oh...hehehe. Syukurlah sudah sampai

G : Gema kira isinya sepeda lipatmu. Ternyata cuma buku2, baju2 dan "sampah2"mu *tiba2 mengalihkan pembicaraan karena putri kecilnya bangun* Keponakanmu cantik banget ini lho, Mbak. Ciku2..Shofiya ini Tante Bunga telepon, Nak

B : Hauuuu...Mbak Bunga pengeeeeeen banget pulang nguyel2 Shomay

G : Ya koe nak balik kapan bah, Mbak? Your homecoming still sounds very ABSURD to me

B : *knocked out* 

It was not the first he's talking that harsh to his big sister. I know he's almost always right, so I just kind of always listen to his sharp comments.

Am I really being that absurd? Am I being too selfish to my family? Do I look like a happy-go-lucky girl who doesn't want to go home a.s.a.p? The absurdity that my brother said has always become my these days' contemplation "theme". He's not the only one who said that. My father ever said that he's insanely missed me and always wants me to go home in no time. Milly also ever said that she didn't understand why I (who happened to be SMART in her "imagination" =p) haven't wrapped up my things here; that I missed too may family events and sort of it. Well, I completely understand that people's lives is full of choices. Either my life is. I chose this path, hence, I don't think I should questioned any of it. But, one thing for sure is, I guess I just got a new "provocation" to end everything here VERY SOON. Enough doing self-sacrifice for else. I...want...to...go...home ! I MUST GO HOME...

Chop-Chop Celebrity

Huh? Who the heck is that on the screen? Eeeehhh...is that M.E? Kekeke...that was my reaction when I saw my-very-self on everywhere's screens in my three separated campuses. Dayuummm...I never knew that my junky survival guide video would be campus-widely played like that =)). 

Speaking about being celebrity in this country, I always feel uneasy when it comes to walking-around-in-a-suppressible-manner. Ever since my arrival in Taiwan, I never once feel at ease. Hello, do you guys mind leaving me alone? I just want to be INVISIBLE! Aughhh...the wishes that simply couldn't be actualized in this place where EVERYONE seems insanely curious about a girl in a veil. 

It's my nature to be very-autistic when I'm walking; bending my head (while "ghodul bashor"-ing =p), walking very fast and listening to my music with nearly maximum volume =p. These are obviously describing my personality as errr...a nerd who hates being the center of attention. So, studying and living in this country sure is a torture to me because everywhere seems like an open catwalk Y-Y. *Sigh

Back to the video which successfully rises me to the top, -as a top-notch campus's celebrity =p. I like the quality of the video. The problem lies in it's dreadful audio, -my voice. Kekeke, the person who usually speaks in a flat inflections like me is not suitable to be an anchor, a host, an MC, whatever it is that needs a golden seiyuu-like voice. 

Selfish!

OK, this is an episode of curcol. The lame one. So what if it's lame?! Let me just continue typing. I just need to spill it out. *ini ngapain sih marah2 sendiri =))*

I...couldn't believe someone can be that-selfish. That specific person (TSP) is no doubt the "orang dalam". But of course, there are a lot of types of "orang dalam". The self-sacrificing one, the selfish one, the lazy one, the enthusiastic one, etc. Yeah...yeah...with that kind of title, this post will definitely disclose about the second one. So what if you already tied a knot? So what if you already wrapped up your thingy here? Let me ask you, what have you done for the you-know-what (in and out)? Where were you when others need your help -hiding at lab I supposed? Things that irritates me the most is TSP loves to brag ehm* (*in order to hide the gender) stuff on ehm social networking sites. Seems like it's hard for you to care for others' feelings, eh? 

I would have completely hate TSP if I don't remember one of my friends' saying "Ga usah iri sama orang kayak gitu. Kerjakanlah semuanya karena Allah ta'ala, insya Allah dirimu ga bakal capek hati". *contemplating