Dreams Come True (part 2)

cont'd-finale

Dr. L : Oh, well. Prof. W is actually very nice. But he has his own unique way to express his kindness; nice and kind but a little bit tough. 
Me : Beughhh...pantesan aye dapet "bonus" semprotan pas pertama kali ketemu dulu XD. But Dr. L, I've secured my plane ticket to Indonesia by next Tuesday. #wails

Anyhow, after received Dr. L's full support, I gritted my teeth* and decided to meet Prof. W to ask a favor. Even though I didn't know how would I explain my situation to him, I determined to do so. A few minutes later, another person came and assured everything. Her English name is Monica. She's a PhD student; my advisor's former student. She's also a researcher in one of the biotech companies in Chiayi.

Monica : Bunga, long time no see! #a little bit dramatic with hugging and almost teary scenes =))
How are you? I haven't seen you for ages. What's this form? 
Me : Monica, I've made up my mind to resign as a student here. I want to go home to pursue another degree in my country. This is a form of resignation and I'm here to ask for Prof. W's signature.
Monica : WHAT? No, no...please don't do that, Bunga. You've worked really hard here and you MUST go home happily with your certificate of degree!
Me : #sighing Dr. L just said the same thing, Monica. She asked me to meet Prof. W to find a way out for this complicated thing. But honestly, I just want to go home. #drama queen mode : ON
Monica : Listen to me, Bunga. Did you know that I also ran away from Dr. Y's** lab? We had a fight about my research and I decided to change advisor. Now I'm under Prof. W's advisory. He's very nice. I'll accompany you to meet him and explain everything to him. I'm sure he'll help you. Bunga, I understand your feeling because I've faced the same situation as you when I was under Dr. Y's advisory.

Hence, Monica became the second person (after Dr. L) who successfully shifted my decision, 180 degrees. After an hour or so, Prof. W came and we awkwardly met. Shortly after sat, Monica explained my A-to-Z situation to him.

Prof. W : Hmmm...honestly, right now I couldn't come up with any idea for your research project, Bunga. Okay, what about like this. Monica, because you've promised to help Bunga, I'll assign you to be her supervisor. Put her on the same research project with you. The solid state fermentation project from your biotech company. What do you think?
Monica : No probs, Prof. What do you think, Bunga?
Me : Nodding speechlessly (*bengong saking bahagianya) --> That research topic is the ONE THAT I'VE ALWAYS WANTED!
Prof. W : If you agree, I'll be your new advisor. What do you say?
Me : Nodding extra speechlessly (*sampai hampir nangis di tempat) --> This kind-tough professor is the ONE THAT I'VE ALWAYS WANTED to have as my advisor because he's the expert in food microbiology-food safety; my all favorite things.
Prof. W : Done deal! So, Monica meanwhile Bunga is having her break in Indonesia, you have to arrange her experimental design, thus she can right away start her experiment once she comes back to Taiwan.
Me : Nodding extremely speechlessly (*akhirnya berkaca-kaca sambil tak berhenti mengucap syukur. Thank you, Allah~)

So, here I am. Start afresh as if I'm a new enrolled student :). Meanwhile, because I have to enroll as an extended student, I need to go home to Indonesia for a couple months and will be back there by July. 

Kun fayakun! Allah itu...KEREN :)! Rencana Allah itu...BEYOND KEREN! DREAMS COME TRUE~^^

*Grit one's teeth : to accept a difficult situation and deal with it in a determined way

**Dr. Y : my former advisor

Dreams Come True (part 1)

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Recently, seems like SURPRISE turns into A NEW OXYGEN for me. It becomes a part of my everyday's life. I never stops jaw-dropping everytime I recall these past few days' sequence of events. For real.

Started from my decision to leave Taiwan for my own good, -not for good, to vice versa's fate Allah has designed for me as in all new advisor-supervisor-research topic. Yes, after had sort-of "mental breakdown" for facing a dead end on my research, I was planned to take a u-turn with pursuing another degree in Indonesia. On Friday, I've made up my mind to arrange my letter of resignation to NCYU's OIA. But oh well, getting out from my university (*or maybe any university?) doesn't seem any easier from its enrollment procedures. I have to get my advisor's to dean of life science's signatures in order to resign from there. A mere withdrawal. 

So, after received a full support to drop out from school from my insanely weird advisor, I went to meet head of department of food science, -Prof. W. Apparently, he still has a class at that time, hence I have to wait. During waiting, Dr. L (*vice head? secretary of dept.?) came and flatly rejected* my "idea" to drop out from NCYU.

Dr. L : Bunga, I couldn't accept your decision to dismiss from school like this. Seriously, it's not fair. You've taken all required courses and only need to fulfill your thesis project. Did you know that in order to graduate, doing experiments at lab is not the only way? You can also write a literature review. Promise me you'll meet Prof. W. I'm sure he'll figure something out for you.

I was like...dumbfounded after heard her saying. Honestly, I was slightly wavering at that time. But still, I have two reasons not to listen to her.

Me : But Dr. L, I've discussed this matter with my parents and they've agreed. Moreover, I couldn't imagine myself talking to Prof. W**. Seems like he despises int'l students. #horrid

*Flatly rejected : menolak mentah-mentah

**He was the one who chased me (and one of my friends) out from his office almost four years ago, when we just arrived in Taiwan. #traumatic

I Feel Blessed

#fact = 600 mg painkiller couldn't chase away my asphyxiation during this kind of situation

I was just vaguely woke up after took a metamizole sodium and suddenly (healed) and feel even more blessed after found a couple loving-care messages from some friends. Seriously, I couldn't express my gratitude enough to Allah for giving me such an awesome friends like them :). Thank you Allah...

To be honest, I've no intention aside from "relieving my anxiety" through writing when I  composed this post, yesterday. Not knowing for what could possibly happened if someone read my post, -including some of my best friends there in Indonesia. And yeah...now I feel like I've caused a ruckus >,<. An emotive chaos. 

Truthfully, my feelings now are still somehow higgledy-piggledy. Campur aduk. But, regardless of how complicated my feelings are, I've locked up my decision. I won't waver. Papa...Mama...Bunga pulang hari Selasa. Ririt, Sunett, Nyu...I'll see you girls within a few days. #tiketsudahditangan

As an epilogue of this sort of blue episode, I would like to say that I feel blissful because I can sense the beauty of ukhuwah here in Taiwan. I really do. Thank you, dear friends...thank you...for everything :). May Allah will let us meet again in another part of the world...or in jannah.

"Ukhuwah Islamiyah is indeed powerful because it's not a mere friendship; it's a strongly tied connection in the name of the beliefs of our faith, aqidah".

A song from Dewi :)